Tuesday, September 30, 2008

My bad day

I've been thinking the whole day about the incidents that happened on me recently these two weeks.

First of all, I fell sick on last Monday and pulled it through only on last Friday, yet, not totally. The bad luck was not ended yet. I showed a sms to my classmate and suddenly I broke my handphone into two pieces. And that's the fate of my handset. I was really upset for it though it has become a invaluable product, yet it's still functioning.

On last Tuesday, my pen drive was infected with virus and all my files were corrupted. Thanks to the infection, I couldn't able to finish my assignment on time. But luckily, thanks for the mercy and kindness of my teacher, I was allowed to share my assignment with my friend.

On Wednesday, I plugged in my Mp3 into my friend's laptop and his anti virus system scanned my mp3 and healed all the virus. It turned out that all my files were gone. Luckily, the mp3 is still functioning.

Om Friday, I came back home. Expecting to surf internet but in vain because my pc was down, finally.

Yesterday, Tuesday, the day I went to hojun's house for a gathering. We had breakfast together. When we reached Mc Donald, I opened the car's door. I saw the place I suppose to alight was clogged with water. Thinking of jumping over the place, I saw something familiar in the stagnant water. Something....written ' Samsung'. God damn. It was my phone. Yet it was my second phone and the only functioning phone. That's all. Everything was gone. Even my last asset also met its destiny.

I really don't know why all these incidents happenened to me. Why??? What had I done wrongly? Did I do anything wrongly? Can someone tell me why??? Can this bad luck all fade away and don't ever follow me??? Please, I sincerely beg you.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

The better me

As time goes by, I finally found out something about my own personality! Wow, awkward right? I guess you won't believe that if I were to say that I didn't actually really know the guy who smiles at me every morning in the mirror. To be frank, in some ways, I do feel as if I know him, but only on a superficial level; the same way we think we know the actors in our favourite soap operas. We may know every explicit detail of the lives of the charaters, but the true personalitiy of the actor themselves is a huge mystery which we have little or no hope of evr solving.

I'm hysteric that I got a chance to know him better now. I found out that my patience has tremendously escalated. I can still be calm and steady although I got a terrible cards in a game. I can tolerate with my family members, by all means. I can even tolerate with a person who tried to put cheat on me. The funniest thing is that, when I was sick, no one knew and no one noticed because I was still as active as a tiger or lion. I could still be very happy. Why? I didn't know.

I didn't know since when I have develope this patience that I have never ever thought of inculcating in myself. Do you know? Does anyone know?  I guess no one knows because including myself, I don't really know how my brain works all the while. He never told me.

That, however, I feel good about the change in me. By now, there's yet a thing that will make me feel terrible in the sense of feeling, until I can't really tolerate with it. Hopefully, I won't have the chance to encounter it.

Holiday started, and ended

Glad to be home. Home sweet home. Holiday started since last friday, the second I stepped into my house. I just couldn't feel the anticipation of all during the journey way home like the last few times. Coupled with my fever that enduring me since Monday, it seems like my holiday has ended as well.

What to say, next month, or to be more exact, I have got three more weeks from now before my final. During my study week, I still have to sit for my MUET speaking test, which falls on Wednesday of that week. For god sake, can someone please tell me what should I do? I'm not really well-prepare for the speaking test. I didn't even know how the format goes. All the thing I have been practising these few months was just to open my mouth and say something.

I just felt very dejected and depressed somehow someway. I couldn't tell, not to my soul or to my whispering heart. Undeniably, the coming exam is one of the major 'contribution' to the depression. Yet, I still didn't want to study although I have the time, I didn't know why, don't ever ask me.

Secondly, I guess that's my lover. She, well, keeps asking me to be more romantic and more sweet towards her like what the stupid Tai did to his gf. I'm recalling, reconsidering, rethinking, or anything about my past attitude towards her. Finally, I found out something. Hey, that's my real personal. I have face her with my true face instead of something sweety sweety that won't last for long. Permenantly, that should be the attitude that you have to face for the whole relationship right? So, I guess I have made a correct option towards her. I hope she can understand why I'm not as sweet as some other boy friend towards her some day. I hope the day will eventually come.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Mid-Autumn Festival

Tomorrow is going to be mooncake festival. Today, I was being asked to watch money's not enough part two with two of my ex-classmates again. Since the movie was a nice one, I joined them for the movie. 

The first time I watch the movie was in Butterworth. That time, I was with my college friends. During the show, my tears were washing over my weary face. I might be affected by one of my friends who sat beside me and a stranger uncle who sat on my the other side. Both of them cried till they were experiencing the same situation. Haha. 

Today, I didn't really cry as terrible as the first time I watched it. Maybe I already knew the story line  or maybe not many of them in the cinema were crying.

Anyway, this movie really brought a meaningful message to me. Parents have sacrificed their time, money, love and even life for their sons. We must respect our parents and take good care of them when they're aged. We cannot have the feel of sickening even though they're sick or what. That's the very time they need their sons' love and care. No matter what happens, I will always put my family on first on my list. I love you mum and dad.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

True or False?

Recently, I couldn't stand it and I finally told him(one of my friends) about her(the one my friend's in love with). 

Initially, I really didn't want to lay a finger in their matters. But on friday evening, she was too over and I really couldn't stand watching my friend being a fool.  The story goes like this :

That evening, we were asked to have our dinner in a cafe far from our hostel. To avoid jostling with others, we went there to have our dinner around 6 something. But our workshop would start later at 8.30. She was too lazy to come to have her dinner because she wanted to watch movie. And guess what she did. She asked him to take away for her. The cafe where we were having dinner and her hostel is one end to another. He just 'obeyed' her order blindly like a fool. I was indeed very very angry watching my friend being fool that way. 

That night, he came to my hostel and we shared our stories. I told him to think again whether it worth what he'd been doing so far. What he got in repay? He knew best than everyone did. I even asked him to reobserve what a person she is. Does she worth you to sacrifice so much for her for getting what this far? Our conversation lasted only till 2 in the pre-dawn.

The other day, he told me what I told him was right and he had made up his mind to pull himself out the chase. He also told me what a fool he had been so far and he thanked me for telling him that so to stop him from being a fool anymore. I didn't know whether I did a right thing for him but I hope he can get the best thing for himself. I wish him all the best for his love story in the future. I will always stand by your side watching you, don't worry.   

Friday, August 22, 2008

Tagged

Rules :1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

4. No tags back!!

1. I will scold whoever studies in front of me. I don’t why. Just don’t feel like to see people studying because I’m not the bookworm type. 

2. I seldom get mad due to petty problems. I even seldom dislike a person unless he’s really terrible. But if I’m moody, you’re going to watch it.

3. My spectacles with degree 450- and 400-, yet I can hardly see things clearly. However, when I put on my contact lens with degree 400- for both, I can see clearer than wearing the spectacles. 

4. I would have long for something for the first minute, but after the second, I just feel that I don’t really need it. So, every time whenever I wanted to buy something, I was like lost my logical thinking but the second minute, my consciousness is regained. I don’t really need that thing much.

5. I’m too famous with my self-praising; in my current college. I always like to take photo of my own, then show off to others telling them how handsome am I. I’m not pretty sure since when I’ve started this. 

6. When I’m driving, if I keep thinking of some other things and forget the place I intend to go, I will eventually go to wrong a place. It’s like a norm; you will just use the road where you often travel. 

7. I’m kind of emotional. I can easily drop tears due to something not that serious. But I can control my rational well.

8. If I were to study, I want to be isolated instead of being a group. Perhaps it’s more effective for me? And when I study, my friend told me I look very serious and like wanting to kill someone. Lol.

9. I cannot focus at all in my work if there is someone with me. Meaning, I can’t do my homework nor study if I have a friend with me. Normally, I’ll chat and chat and chat with him/her.

10. I’m always forgetful. You don’t ask me what I did last night. I really couldn’t remember. Not even where I’d been to or what dinner I had.

11. I don’t know why my friends are studying so hard for the exam while I study less much more but my scoring…. Hehe. I don’t mean to show off here, but just, you know, well, weird.

12. Sometimes when I recall some sweet memories, I will smile and people think I’ve gone insane, normally. 

13. I’m getting used to waking up early in between 6-8am nowadays. I can’t sleep late anymore though I sleep late in the night. 

14. I always like to criticise others on any of their mistakes. Muahahaha. And the criticism always will be a tough one to them.

15. When I fall in love with a person, I can’t stop thinking and dreaming of the person’s everything. 

I tag rocky, ooi siang and wai hong!


Saturday, August 2, 2008

Yahoo, I got JPA

Like ordinary, I went to library at night to watch drama series in the discussion room. When I proceeded to the second floor, my friend suddenly told me, 'James, JPA result is out!'. I was like stunned, rooted to the ground. 

After gainingmy consciousness, quickly, I approached the pc as well. 'Your IC number,' my friend asked. Then she typed in my IC number. I was trembling like a leaf. Then, the portal showed this:

Tahniah. Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa saudara/i telah berjaya ditawarkan biasiswa Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam untuk mengikuti pengajian peringkat Tingkatan 6/Matrikulasi/Asasi Sains/Foundation/Ijazah pertama di bawah Program Penajaan Tambahan Pelajar Lepasan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) 2007 Yang Mendapat 9A Dan Ke Atas Bagi Tahun 2008.

Wohoo!!!!!! Anyway, we are requested to give a reply the latest by tomorrow. So whoever did apply for this scholarship please remember to give a reply before deadline.